Why is it the weekend right now?! I am 2 weeks post transfer, and today is the normal day for my office to do the beta test. But I guess no betas on weekends-boo! So my first beta will be tomorrow at 15dp3dt! Torturous!
I’ve been going through a lot of highs and lows during this TWW. Most of my lows were early on, and since then I have felt much more cautiously optimistic. I saw my newly pregnant friend again, and once again interrogated her on her lack of symptoms. She found out she was pregnant around 6 weeks, and in retrospect only had noticed she was markedly more tired 4 days earlier. So no sore boobs and morning sickness at 17dpo. Which she never would have known was 17dpo.
Thinking about my lack of symptoms is the only thing that can make me feel a little disheartened, so talking to her really lifted my spirits on Friday night. Which isn’t an easy task when you are at a party with all your friends that either have kids or are pregnant!
This morning I was laying in bed really having a hard time deciding if I should POAS or not. I had decided a long time ago not to, but then with it being beta day was reconsidering. Ultimately I decided not to and decided to pee (so I couldn’t change my mind) and then climb back into bed and stalk recent BFP bloggers symptoms, and google “14dp3dt no symptoms”…that google search was very helpful! It lead me to a message board that had encouraging stories, and one had a timeline with twin boys, and their names. Suddenly I remembered that I had a dream last night that we were pregnant with twin boys!! Not only is this amazing because I usually don’t remember dreams, but this is the first time I remember having a dream I was pregnant! We have had a boy name (first and middle) picked out for years, and I remember in the dream being like “Oh, we have to think of a new boy name!”…sidenote: in the dream we split up our current boy name and used the first name for boy #1 and the current middle name for boy #2’s first name!
I literally hopped out of bed and ran downstairs to tell my husband about the dream, and he said he had a dream I was pregnant too! He didn’t remember any details though. I am feeling ridiculously positive right now; which could definitely change in the next 24 hours. I really think even if we get bad news tomorrow that our dreams were maybe telling us not to give up hope! But I am praying that it is a sign for this cycle!
I’ll be at work all day tomorrow, so will not listen to my message about my beta until my husband and I are both at home…less than 36 hours!!